Thursday, November 17, 2011

TranscenDANCE...

I've decided, once again, to cut out *John out of my life. Maybe it'll be a few years, maybe it'll be a few months. I honestly don't know. It's not like we spoke on a regular basis so it's good to get my focus back on track, letting go of situations, behaviors, people that aren't on the same level in reciprocation, mindfulness and proper communication exchange. 

I know for some, the act of doing this feels cumbersome but I think it's a form of clearing out. 

It is a form of mental and spiritual cleansing to finally let go, remove or eradicate relationships, ties or connections that are not serving one's highest good. 

My chatter revolving around *John was very painful, self-destructive, exhausting and I'm not sure that I was just blinded by 'love' and I was just unable to see this or maybe the masks are being unveiled and I'm finally seeing it ALL. The good AND the bad. 

Making amends has been a part of the healing component in receiving closure. My mistake from the far and near distant past was the notion that I needed to speak to the person that has been the source of conflict. Sometimes, it helps and in this previous case, it helped some but I still contemplate on whether it was necessary. Speaking with him openly and hearing what he had to say allowed me to truly see the reality of the situation. It was all an illusion based on some fantastic, romantic notion of a display of mutual respect and love. I repeat. It was ALL an illusion. It was a story I wrote, re-wrote, played out and looped continually in my head. In fact, I think this is another example of the repeat patterns of intimate relations that I'm now in the process of breaking. 

If I take a logical stance, reflect on the data, compare actions to words shared.  Expectations not met. Needs not met. And there I was, AGAIN, believing in the illusion of potential, getting aggravated with myself for not seeing it for what it was and breathing a sigh of relief and allowing the veils to be lifted so that I can see what's behind the curtain. 

Dorothy, sweetie, eat your fuckin' heart out. 

And, I know, I keep saying this but IT'S SO TRUE. I can place blame, point the finger and shout my obscenities or I can choose to see it as allegorical, metaphorical and like a multi-faceted crystal catching the sunlight or small jagged pieces of mirror from a huge disco ball and LAUGH. Because it's all part of the growth and wisdom to be able to see the different parts of ourselves reflected in those lover's eyes, the fights or arguments, the time spent reflecting and excavating. The inquiries and reminders of how to be a better person by making amends, basking in forgiveness and indulging in the surrender of Love and Acceptance. These yet to be earthed gems of wisdom lurking in the shadow corners of your mind and heart are just waiting for a pair of unclouded eyes to truly SEE what it is we are all meant to do...

Holy fuckin' shit. 

And when you look at it like that...all those situations from the glorious, cosmic, life-changing events to the crawl-on-the-floor-with-a-dirt-smeared-tear-stained-heart-heavy-face-where-you-question-whether-life-is-worth-living-experience...you realize, after the wallowing or the impermanence...it's a Gift...they're all gifts to strengthen, widen, open, engage, encompass, release, heal, teach, inspire, transcend us ALL TO LIVE without fear, without judgement, without anger or ridicule and The Key is to not suppress, undermine or ignore these feelings (for those mentioned above) nor is it wise to dwell and fester. Honor them. Embrace them. Do not resist them. Have faith and trust that it won't be forever that they'll stay, unless you want them to. 

I have found that in Nature lies the answer to all questions. From listening to the sounds of water flowing through rocks and dirt, to the sun peeking in from the tops of the trees, to bright green moss covering a wall of Stone People...if we take the time to listen, to sit in stillness and be One with Nature..all will be revealed, all questions will be heard, all doubts, judgements, fear...silenced. 

And Truth will come forth in its beautiful glory. Little reminders will be whispered: All is divinely guided. You are loved. All will be taken care of. All will be provided. Have Faith. Have Trust.

Choose!

Surrender. Meditate. Visualize. 

That is a brief summation on what came forth a few days ago after much contemplation. This clarity I share with you hoping it will help you on your own journey towards transcenDANCE.....

*name has been changed
<3

My take on Sex And The Sacred Feminine

This is an excerpt from a message exchange between myself and my friend, Elliott. There has been much to say in regards to our lives and some good sharings. This is one of them:

The sexual act is not something that I take very lightly. Sex (or making love as some have described) is an expression for two people to communicate where words cannot convey. Their bodies become the vessels for the highest and/or deepest connection towards love and consciousness. It can be a way for two people to deepen their bond or to be a mere way to release sexual energy. As long as there is clear intention and there's consent, it can be conducted with respect, honor, love and openness. It has been a rare thing for me to experience. But, the blame does not lie solely on my previous lovers. I did not allow myself to see and be open to this wisdom. Now I have been made aware. I share this with you so you may have a better understanding not only from me but from one of many perspectives that hopefully shed some light. In this new paradigm and portal we are now entering, I vow to do my best in not only honoring the Sacred Feminine but the Sacred Masculine as well. This is in regards to not only those energies that reside within me, but with the exterior manifestations that reside in ALL.

Blessings,
A <3

Table For One

The bowl is empty
It has been
For quite some time now
On occasion
It was filled
With
A myriad of
Different things
But continues
To remain empty
Much to my despair

I have asked others
To fill it
Unknowingly (at times)
And the result
Has been
Cracks,
A chip or two
Disappointment
Disillusionment
Or a desire to
Break the bowl
Entirely
Where the remains
Are put back
Together
With a Laugh
And a few tears
Because the bowl
Is still empty
And I wish
It were not so...

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Newsletter on 11/10/11 Full Moon In Taurus & 11/11/11 Portal

Dearest Friends

Tomorrow Thursday November 10, at 12:16 PM PST, the Moon will come to fullness in Taurus. A beautiful time to do a fire ceremony and honor our Mother the Earth, the divine feminine and co-create abundance in our lives!
The veil is definitely thinning. We are accessing subtle levels of information that never were available to us, leading to profound healing and a deeper understanding of our divinity as it informs our humanity.
As the energies around us are becoming stronger and stronger, nervous tension could be high, we could feel scattered and detached. Strange circumstances and odd behavior could trigger instability. Possible inconsistencies are best handled by  drawing on our insight, poise and ingenuity. Although it is necessary to get all the facts and avoid being drawn in fantasy,  it also is a time to concretize our dreams and literally pull them from the ethers into physical reality. As we use practical efforts in helping others, we heal them by seeing them already whole/holy. Considerate thoughts and loving words are a must, that we may come in right relationship with all of life and everyone around us.
A beautiful Grand Trine (3, 120º aspects) between Jupiter, Mars and Pluto is strengthening group activities intent on acting out cheerfully, with wisdom and tolerance, their will to unravel the truth. Putting work into what we believe in, helps bring ideal conditions. Mystical, artistic, charitable work inspire people and help catch their imagination. Stable conditions that appear to be dissolving are actually opening us up to new possibilities for our dreams to come true.
Friday 11.11.11. is not just a numerological phenomenon. The chart of that day at 11.11 AM is quite magical. Whenever we see 11:11 on our digital clocks, it is a reminder to monitor our thoughts, speak loving words, and focus on appreciation and gratitude. On Friday, this will be beyond important as we are stepping through one of the most powerful portals for re-creating our lives, before 12.12.12 which will bring completion. If we can all meditate on what we wish for at 11:11 AM and 11:11 PM on that day, either alone or in a group -as we feel drawn to do, we can literally change the face of society and flood the world with a light more powerful than has ever been.
The same Grand Trine present in the Full Moon chart has now shifted completely to Earth signs (Taurus, Virgo and Capricorn), showing our ability to manifest all our dreams in physical reality. It is a time to have great visions for ourselves and know that with strong integrity, we are coming into mastery of our lives, allowing everything we believe in that is in alignment with our highest good, to come to fruition. It is also a time where financial abundance is within reach if we detach ourselves from the controlled fear that would have has give power to scarcity and recession. Our money comes directly from the Divine, not from a job or a person.
Our spiritual family is gathering closer and closer to us. Creative imagination is favored. Work on ourselves that hasn't been done could become more apparent, causing some instability in our domestic circumstances. Drawing on our meditative serenity helps us deal effectively with vague disappointments that would otherwise present obstacles to our peace. We could be led to move to a more ideal location that is both nurturing and supportive of our gifts.  
Our understanding and relationship to sexuality could also be changing. The biggest black magic going on in society at this point is sexual in nature. Women reduced to sexual objects in advertisement, encourage women of all ages to believe that only our physical charms can get us the relationship and happiness of our dreams. Misled women encourage men into an illusion, enticing them to experience sexual encounter after sexual encounter which can never lead to the bliss only found from choosing one another from our hearts. The 11.11.11. portal is about reconnecting to our hearts, knowing that we are all one and that seeing in another what we wish for ourselves, is the only way to bring true healing.
Wishing you a powerfully creative and enlightening transition!

Until later….
In Loving Light.
M.
Michelle Karén M.A., D.F.Astrol.S.

www.MichelleKaren.com
Astrologer, Shaman, Author of
Astrology For Enlightenment
Atria books, Simon and Schuster