Monday, September 9, 2013

Blessings


Blessings of Today...

I know I write a lot about my daily beach runs and how I see something really amazing or receive a super 'download'...and today  was no different.  Not only was it an exceptionally beautiful day, it was filled with so many blessings that I wanted to share some of them with you here...

As I was walking towards the beach, there was a young man watering the front part of his apartment building. My intuition compelled me to stop and talk to him.  Apparently, he was watering a small garden of herbs, tomatoes and other veggies.  He was so very excited to share and speak about it I had a difficult time getting a word in. :) According to him, before the garden there was just weeds.  His passion and excitement was infectious more so that I'm sure that's why his dog, Bailey, peeked his cute little head out the window to check out the commotion ;0) I high fived him and told him he made my day as I ventured back on my way to the beach...
It was just past the crowded lunch hour but the pier still drew a crowd. The wind blew a bit strongly so the surfers were keeping out of the water but that meant it was great for the kite surfers.
As I watched the water ripple into thousands of waves I noticed the familiar fins of my beloved friends, the dolphins. When I first initially spotted them they were keeping the birds company as they dove into the water and back up to the surface for what I'm assuming was food i.e. fish.
Some began swimming on and I began to quicken my pace.  Next thing I know, I'm running.  Running with the dolphins! Which really translates to them swimming in the ocean water and me trying to keep up with them as the boardwalk hugs the sea shore.  Every so often I would have to look in front of me lest I bump into someone or trip and fall.  It was quite difficult to keep looking straight head of me because I was constantly looking to the water to make sure they were still there.  Their fins would every so often peek up onto the surface and then plunge underneath again.
I don't know what possessed me to do this because I'm sure I looked like a crazy person...which in actuality would not look too out of place due to the growing homeless crowd that tends to hang out there as well.  There's one woman whom I sometimes attempt conversations with but the only thing that made sense to me, the one time I engaged in a conversation with her was that she called me a 'happy shapeshifter' which, frankly, isn't too far off.  Anyway, I digress...
I made it to my end destination: The Talking Rock and watched from my usual perch as my finned friends circled and feasted.  The joy, excitement, gratitude and wonder filled my whole body.  My happiness brimmed over and my heart was so full.  I offered my prayers and bowed in humility at the greatness of this magical world.

Saturday, September 7, 2013

Love Sometimes...

In an unexpected surprise, I ran into my ex at the beach today whilst on my daily run. Seeing his handsome face brought an instant smile to my face. We stood there chatting and laughing about moments in our lives, our travels, our families and not only was I overcome with great joy, I was also struck with a sudden sadness. I was reminded then of how I chose my desire to explore the world over creating a life with this man and settling down here in Ventura. This decision did not come without a price.

Love sometimes means I must step aside so that someone else can provide what I cannot. Love sometimes means swallowing my pride, sacrificing. Love sometimes means letting go. Love sometimes means choosing an unconventional Happily Ever After.  Love sometimes means not believing in the illusion of loneliness but the inescapable reality of carving out a Life and Path that not many have led. And most importantly, Love sometimes means that I don't close my heart even if it's what I've done in the past and that I never stop loving. Ever.

Sometimes it still flows forth, more so then I'd like to admit and all I can really do is open my arms wide, allow the tears to cascade down in glittery waterfalls...knowing in my entire BEing I made the right decision.

To always follow my Bliss...

And if it is truly meant to be, then our paths will cross again and maybe the Universe will offer another chance for us to create together because as we all know...if it's True Love...

as in: one part 'Princess Bride' Twoo Wuvv, one part Love Eternal...
it never leaves,
it never dies.

It's with us, Always...